i woke up this morning crying. i really do not know why until i finally realized what i dreamed of. sa panaginip ko bigla xang lumapit sa akin in a setting i really cannot remember. parang it was like a get together of people close to me. andun sina alex.si aila.dun lahat pwera xa. i was sad xmpre pero wala naman aqng magawa.tpos bigla xang dumating and kahit naaalangan na ako masay din aq kahit papano dhil nakita q xa. so weird dhil tahimik xa. bigla xang lumapit and started crying. she said "i'm sorry.." i was surprised to finally hear that from her. at the same time i was confused and i do not know what to say. sbi nia "pare.nag ka byfriend aq sa manila habang medyo hindi tayo magkaayos.then lately we broke up.." lalo akong nagulat at nalito.ang dami kong gusto itanong. gusto ko magalit sa taong iyon dahil alam ko nasasaktan tong taong ito na nasa harap ko.sabi ko "tapos?" sabi nia "sorry.kasi sobrang naging masaya ako sa kanya at nakalimutan na kita.kaya siguro i did not have enough initiative to patch things up between the two of us..sorry. i need you back pare" hindi ko mapigilan na umiyak nung marinig ko yun.lahat ng galiut.lahat ng sakit nawala.wala ng tampo.wla ng tanong2 pa.ang alam ko eto na xa.niyakap ko xa after.tpos sabi ko "don't worry.andito na ako pare.dai taka na pababayaan ulit.sorry.." tpos everything felt right . i was happy again.and i was willing to start all over again. masaya na sana.kaso nagising ako bigla.that was the time i realized it was all a dream.and wla pala xa sa tabi ko..:(

nand'yan ka na naman
tinutukso-tukso ang aking puso
ilang ulit na bang
iniiwasan ka di na natuto

sulyap ng 'yong mata
laging nadarama kahit malayo, ooh
nahihirapan na
lalapit-lapit pa di na natuto

isang ngiti mo lang
at ako'y napapaamo
yakapin mong minsan
ay muling magbabalik sa'yo

na walang kalaban-laban
ang puso ko'y tanging iyo lamang
ooh...

o eto na naman
laging nananabik ang aking puso,
ooh...
muling bumabalik
sa 'yong mga halik
di na natuto

isang ngiti mo lang
at ako'y napapaamo
yakapin mong minsan
ay muling magbabalik sa'yo

na walang kalaban-laban
ang puso ko'y tanging iyo lamang


lately hindi na kita naaalala.i was living my life normally pero xmpre alam kong may kulang.but then i wanted to try to become happy as long as i can.then i suddenly have this dream.namiss tka lalo:(

It feels like a lifetime,
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me
If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right
Nw you’re so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I’ll always stay

Girl, lately my sun doesn’t shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine,
Sun doesn’t shine without you

This is more for me than for you
Girl, I finally see there’s no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you’re so far away
Gonna tell you and show you
Do whatever I can do to get back to you

Girl, lately my sun doesn’t shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine,
Sun doesn’t shine without you

trixia i miss you so much.balik ka na pare.please :(