APRIL 28, 2011

akala ko wala nang tatalo sa april 17..well, eto na.meron pa pala :)

first time.!

yes.it was the first time..
pero alam ko madami pang kasunod :)
thank you faith!
i love you :)

the reason why i live :)

adik :)

it does not matter

april 17, 2011

the day i have been waiting for. the day i never expected would come as early as now. the day when everything went in your way. the day when only it's her you see. the day that changed a lifetime.

"there is a time for everything.." this has been the story of my past week. i have shared all my frustrations during the past week with ate renee. and this is all she said. she believes there is always a right time for everything. well, i really believe in this line. but not as much as now. after a week of disappointment, the day i have been waiting for finally arrived. in the most unexpected date, in the most unexpected scenario. i just do not know how to react. what to say. i just smiled and held her hand and made her feel she won't regret anything. the silence was all over the place. it was only me and her inside the crowd. it was only the two of us who understands each other. i do not know exactly what she meant. all i know was we are happy. ganito na kami kasaya ngayon na hindi na maaaring ikumpara pa sa kahit ano. kala ko sa fairytale lang or sa movies lang nangyayari ang ganito, well hindi pala.pwede pala siya sa totoong buhay. no one knows the future for future is equated with uncertainty. but if future is equated with uncertainty plus you, then i would not fear anything as long as i have you.it does not matter if we are not in the norms of the society. it does not matter if we are the only ones who understand this kind of set up. it does not matter if it was a yes. it does not matter as long as i have you. im ready for anything. thank you so much faith. you know how much you have made me happy. you know how much you mean to me. i will always love you :)

boystown rocks..

this was one of those nights when everyone was serious about life and everyone keeps asking where would we go. weel. this is one hell of a night with boystown. dai na ako madetail kang nangyari.masakit na.haha.

djai, peht, lanz, ras, pao.. the best talaga kamu :)

the greatest story ever told

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could have prayed for
Here you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
tonight
I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine
It's the way we touch, it soothes me
It's the way we'll always be
your kiss your pretty smile
you know i'd die for
oh baby
you're all i need
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
just how much i really need you
did I tell you that I love you
tonight
tonight
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
just how much I really need you
did I tell you that I love you tonight

so sure..

never in my life i have been this so sure.so happy :)

37 days to go..

yes.37 days to go and the big night is coming. excited na ako kaya naman grabeng planning ang ginawa namin ni djai the past few days.tsk.so excited :)

taking chances..

tinanong ako ng barkada ko kahapon..
"padi, ano ang sarong linyang habo mong masabi mo sa sadiri mo in the future..let's say mga two or three years from now.."

napaisip ako..

hindi ako nakakibo..

ang dami kong naisip..

ang dami kasing pwede..

"saro lang padi.."

hamag na barkada ko yan.pinasakitan pa ako.pero bigla kong naisip ang isasagot.

"ah.sige.igwa na akong simbag padi..uni.habo kong masabi in the future na..

"ah.si faith?ex ko baga yan.."

hmm.yan na siguro.ayaw kong sabihin yan sa sarili ko in the future.sabi ko nga nung nakaraan malala na nga eh.kung pwede wag na siyang pakawalan.and so far, mukhang hindi ko masasabi ang linyang yan.

last friday nagusap kmi ni manay about sa future careers namin.medyo seryoso pero masaya.mas masaya kasi gusto namin pagdating ng panahong iyon, kami pa din ang magkasama.kilig no?:) share lang naman.masaya na naman ako eh.makikita ko na xa bukas!:)

sana nasa UP ako..

this was the line i keep saying during the first year of my college life in ateneo.and everytime people would hear me say this line they would always say na they can feel my frustrations and disappointments even though they really do not know the whole story.well,like djai and lanz we have always wished we are studying in manila because we really think we deserve to have such privilege of studying in that level of schooling.well, fate did not become so kind for us that is why we are here obviously. sabi ko nun kung nasa manila ako i should be taking up Chemical Engineering which i really like. i should be solving equations and formulas today rather than memorizing the stages of managerial decisions and all.well, atleast ngayon i am a polsci student na and i am really loving my course for it also reflects my personality and all.second, sabi ko kung nasa manila ako bwelo ako.maung curfew.luwas kung nuarin gusto.no need na magpaaram and all.i will live by myself.ganun lang.third kung nasa manila ako sana hindi kami nagkagulo nung dati kong "bestfriend".hmm.lagi ko talaga itong sinasabi sa sarili ko pero eto na ako.nasa ateneo.

well, nakamove on naman na talaga ako sa line na yan.the point why i am blogging this sentiment is because i would like to thank the lord for NOT allowing me to go to school in manila.take note.THANK HIM FOR NOT ALLOWING ME HA.bakit?simple lang.KUNG NASA MANILA AKO, MAKIKILALA KO BA SI MS. BRIONES?MALAMANG HINDI DI BA?:)hmm.yeah.this is all about her na naman.pero lately kasi i have been finding reasons why im becoming like this.sabi nga ni alex,sabi nga ni djai,sabi nga ni ate she,sabi nga ni pongs,at sabi nga ng lahat, malala na ang tama ko.malala na nga.malala na talaga.

so yun nga.kahit alam na ng lahat at alam niya na rin, malala na talaga ang tama ko.actually, habang nagbblog ako nagtext xa. "avestruz, thank u pala.." i do not know in particular kung bakit siya nagtext ng ganun.wala man pati akong load ngayon kaya hindi ko talaga siya matanong.inisip ko, this has been one of the ordinary days that we have been together.kya napaisip talaga ako.well, nagbago na nga pala ang context ko when it comes to ordinary day.an ordinary day is a day na magkasama kami at masaya.ganun.i guess every day is worth thankung for kasi magkasama kami.un lang.kaya apakiramdam ko i am really the one who should be thanking her.kasi ako yung pumasok at nanggulo sa buhay niya but then everything is working at it should be.everything is falling into its place.everything is perfect.kaya yan, THANK YOU MS. BRIONES KO!:)

mabuti na lang wala ako sa UP.eto na ang linya ko..:)

two in a row

well. i do not know what she is up to.after me, si alex naman ang papakitaan niya ng ganyan.i do not know hindi ko na talga kilala ang taong minsang tinuring kong "bestfriend"..

missing my princess..

well.it has been four days na hindi kami nagkikita.different emotions ang nafefeel ko nagun.una, para na akong baliw.haha.well, this is a sign of addiction?chaka.understood man yan.pagbigyan nanindo ako ha?haha.pero if there is one feeling that is dominant as of now.well syempre miss ko na siya ning malala.as in malala ha.no communication for four days and mas pinipili ko na lang magturog para magnext day na kaso mau.mala.hmm.i just realized each day how she had became this important to me.she has been the first and last thing that enters my mind.that sounds a little bit corny pero totoo.admittedly, im really trying to divert my attention to someone or something else.naglaba ako ning dakulon.ngaralas baga si mama.haha.tapos ngbabad ako sa tv nagparadalan ning nba ska pba.pati si inter zone samu pinatulan ko ng dalanun dawa laptripun ta patal patal ang nagkakarawat.haha.mau.from time to time maabot talaga siya sa sistema ko.the same line always goes out of me. "i wish she is with me right now..kahit five seconds lang.." sabi nga ni manay, challenging daa pag dai kami nagkakahilingan.pero aram mo manay?nakakakapay po ang tamang term.(nagtext xa habang ginigibo ko ni!:))well.i really miss her this much.and matutulog na ako after nito.im gonna see my princess tomorrow!!!:)

hey. 18 na ako. haha

i know this is kinda late. pero better late than never. i was asleep the past two days. literally. kaya i really have no time to check my blog and all. of course i would like to thank everyone who greeted me on my birthday. people who really care for me over the years. thank you so much. this post is for the 18 important people of my life. 18 people who at this point in time of my life is making a big difference. thanks everyone!:)

1. ALEX. my high school bestfriend. actually during my bday we celebrated our 41st monthsary as bestfriends. im really thankful to have her all these years. and i know i will have her for the rest of my life. thanks bes. i really miss you. wala ka pati nung birthday ko. uwi ka na so we could talk.hehe. love you alex!:)

2. ATE SHE. i really do not know if i should be calling her ate since parang mas isip bata pa ito sa akin.haha.well anyway respeto sa mas nakakagurang sako db. thanks ate she. sa pagiging bestfriend ko sa guidance. pinakanagwelcome sa akin sa cgc. mamimiss kong iwalon ko.ai.nasa athletics ka man lang plan db.haha.love you ate she.congrats graduate ka na. regalo ko ha?:)

3. DJAI. well.obviously the person i have been with for the longest time during college. kaibahan ko sa gabos na intermissions. kalokohan. kabaduyan. and im glad na kasama ko siya nung umiyak ako nung bday ko.tnx djai. im really blessed to have you as my friend. take care of dea. i love you tol.nyaha :)

4. PONGS. i can not remember kung kelan ba talaga kami naging close ng taong ito. the next thing i know she is now one of these people i am taking care of. this sweet girl whom i now consider as one of my little sisters. thank you. i wish you the happiness i have right now. im always here for you. love you pongs!:)

5. RENZO. isa pa ito. di ko na din matandaan kung kelan pero yan. he has become one of these persons i would like to treasure for the rest of my life. ini garu ang taong dai mababa sa 5 times kong mahuhug sa sarong aldaw.haha.arog kami kayan kaclose ngunyan and ill do everything to sustain the closeness. love you bax. thank you so much.stay happy:)

6. LANZ. ini garo ko na kakambal. well. im glad this person had really matured enough to become independent and lead the ateneo community in the future. i just wish him strength and happiness. i know what he's been going through right now. stay strong pare.hahanapan taka man psych major.haha :)

7. ATE RENEE. hmm. the last time nagkahilingan kami kani tigsnob pa ang letter ko.haha.d man.kapai lang talaga ang ate kong ini kaya padangat ko yan. one of the people na i never hesitate to share and ask about things.and tatao man palan xa magseryoso.haha.thanks ate.stay pretty.stay happy.love you ate:)

8. AILA. c friendship ko no.miss ko na ning maray ta dai ko ni nakakatext na ta smart na ko.sana maguli ka na haloy na kitang maung update sa kada saro.haha.she's one of the high school friends na hanggang ngunyan yaun pa din dai arog kang iba.tnx pare.i miss you:)

9. CHA. i call her kaclose. c chrm na minsan na din na nlink sako has been one of my closest friends since then. ikaw na sunod magbbday.hehe.tnx for everything kaclose. i really miss you. paguwi mo don't worry, you will be meeting the girl of my life:)

10. CHARLES. c pare na idol ko sa pagkanta.oh.maung sarcasm yan ha. idol ko kaya ni sa self confidence.haha. im glad i have known him in my life.totoong barkada ni na nagkakiridit kang hinika ako sa arrupe.haha.tnx pare.wish you all the happiness.kamu man lang yan in the end.laban pa:)

11. ATE JAYCEE. saro ko pang idol pagkanta.ini totoo na.well she is the performer na nasstarstruck pa din ako pagnagpeperform. well, nanliliit talaga ako pag kasabay ko siyang kumanta. she has been my inspiration para ayusin kung ano mang talent meron ako.haha.thanks ate for letting me enter your life.thank you so much. many more song numbers to share with you:)

12. DADA. hmm. medyo haloy ko naman ining dai nakakaulay and nahihiling. aram ko nagtatampo na ni.dont wori barkada mabawi ako saimo.hehe.tnx for everything.i really miss you na :)

13. BOYSTOWN. tiggibo ko na lang collective ang mga kupal na ni.haha.ini ang tropa ko sa college. djai.lanz.paolo.herras.peht. dawa bihiraon na kitang magkajaram dai pa nanggad nagbabago ang ibanan ta. salamat na maray mga pare.ma two years na kita.haha

14. MAE. one of the few high school friends na natitira sakin.thanks for staying.alam ko lagi kang busy pero u never ignores my calls and texts. miss you mae. love you :)

15. KUYA BRENT. one of the special persons in the office. im glad na bago ka naggraduate we got to get along. salamat sa pagshare and all. ill miss you kuya. see you around:)

16. GKIDS. no need to elaborate. volunteerism at itss best.thanks gkids. you're the best!:)

17. FAMILY. ma. pa. chelsea. im glad everything is going right in our home. thank you for everything. i love you :)

18. FAITH. well.obvoius naman cguro why she is listed last here.i do not know where to start thanking her.all i want her to know is im thankful to have her in my life. i can say she was the miising pice in me over the past years.thank you.i never expected na magiging ganito tayo.actually nagpost ako nito wala pa kming tulod pareho.madamag kaming magkatext.as in.haha.pag inlove nga naman.thanks for being here. hindi ko na alam kung magiging ano ako pag nawala ka pa.im thankful thigns has been clarified during the past days.the set up has been defined.the feelings have been brought up.everything's perfect.mayo na akong ibang gusto kundi to spend the rest of my life with you. thank you for helping me out.no pressure db?ill just be right here.ill wait forever til you are mine.talagang this is no ordinary love.MARIA CLARENCE FAITH BRIONES.thanks for everything.i love you:)

yan.18 people i will be sharing with the rest of my life.thank you so much.i love you all:)

my heart has a mind of its own..

People try and tell me that its crazy
You and I were never meant to be
I don't believe they know,
and even if its so
I'm fallen anyway, no matter what they say.

A part of me is taking me by the hand
The world can't see, still
they can't understand
Why can't they understand.. . .

My heart has a mind of its own
Right or wrong it's gonna do
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Only what it feel is true
I'll follow it where ever it goes
Anywhere it leads me to
My heart has a mind, mind of its own.

Maybe we will always be together
Maybe this'll last a thousand years
ain't nobody knows, and even if they did
It wouldn't matter now
I'd love you anyhow.

My heart knows what I'm needing
My heart knows what I'm feeling
It knows me better than I know myself
My heart knows what I'm missin'
All I have to do is listen
And listen well...